Sunday, December 7, 2014

A short and sweet story about a young boy's love for a robot girl. Check out the full story at Amazon.com

My Robot Girlfriend, Lilly

By Alexandra Yang

Copyright © 2014 by Alexandra Yang
This book is work of fiction. The names, characters, places are products of the author's imagination or have been used fictitiously and are not to be construed as real. Any resemblance to person, living or dead, actual events, locales or organizations is entirely coincidental.
All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced, distributed, or transmitted in any form or by any means, including photocopying, recording, or other electronic or mechanical methods, without the prior written permission of the author.









The Nerd Life


“Julian, dear, don’t you think it’s about time you have a girlfriend?”
My mother was sitting next to me as I completely stopped my 22-0 Call of Duty: Advanced Warfare kill streak, just when I was going to prestige. And let me tell you this. I have never had to pause my game to physically turn my head and body around to see my mother, looking at me dead in the eyes with worry written all over her drawn-in eyebrows. God her brows were ugly, but they made my mother happy and I didn’t want to get a five hour lecture about the power of makeup.
“Did you hear me, Jules?” she asked, crossing her arms now. Tilting her head to the side a little.
“Um. Yeah, mom?”
“I said, it’s time you try finding yourself a little girlfriend. You’re what, 23 years old now?”
“Mom, I’m only 18…”
“Same thing! It’s time you stop playing your video games and…I don’t know. Experience life! Love! Get a job, too!”
Her words hit me like a sack of cabbage. And I hated cabbage.
As night fall came, I was sitting at my computer/gaming desk, surfing the web and the almighty Facebook. I had a Facebook account that I never used until now and found that I had quite a lot of friends, but…not in actual person and the majority of those people I had little clue about or have never even seen with my own eyes…except for my Yu-Gi-Oh squad of course. But then I stopped and began thinking. No one in the Yu-Gi-Oh squad had girlfriends either. Not Thomas, not Garry, not even Jamar.
I continued my social media creeping on some of the girls at my high school that were mutual friends to me (again, only on Facebook). There was Tiffany, the super hot dumb blonde that I had no interest in but her perky boobs. Claire, the quiet Asian chick who was actually pretty cute and had a thing for me during sophomore year but I was too blind, Mandy, the girl next door, and the list kept going on and on with every profile picture getting more half naked-like each time I scrolled to the next. I shook my head and face palmed myself. What the hell am I doing? I thought. And then I saw it. The perfect girl.
I couldn’t help but click on the ad. Thinking it was going to be another porn site, it turned out to be something completely different from my dirty mind. The ad was called “Finding Real Love” with the word real flashing like crazy and emphasized. I bit my lips a little, hoping this wasn’t just another one of those scams. I analyzed the page. And it looked pretty legit. So I signed up.


 Unwrapping Lilly


Early next morning at school, I couldn’t help but think how stupid I was as I held my 3ds in front of me, trying to play Super Smash Bros. 4.
“Julian, you okay bro?”
I looked up from the screen to see Garry’s acne so close to me that I almost screamed. I blinked twice and didn’t realize my mouth was completely opened.
“Huh?” was all I managed to say.
“You’re not even playing with us. You keep self-destructing or not moving,” Jamar said impishly.
“Oh…sorry. Just have a lot on my mind today,” I played off, which, actually I did. My mother’s eyebrows and words, gaming, Facebook, and the mysterious package I was supposed to receive later on today from “Finding Real Love”.
“That’s weird,” said Thomas.
“What are you thinking about?” Garry asked, still pretty up close with his acne.
“Just some stuff my mom said to me yesterday...she said I need a job…and…,” I paused.
“And…?” the three of them questioned in unison.
“A girlfriend…”
They all spun out of their chairs. One actually falling off.
“Is your mother crazy?!”
“A girlfriend!?”
“Why? Who needs one! You only want one! And for you, you’re neither!”
“Are you really going to let a girl in our squad?”
“Chill out dudes, jeez…I didn’t say I’m going to…”
They stopped and leaned in closer to the kissing distance.
“Are you?”
I hesitated and thought about my package again. What the hell did I get myself into?
“Maybe…”
It finally arrived that evening. I dragged, pushed, actually using my strength, and snuck the enormous package inside to the basement—my bedroom. That thing weighed the size of an elephant’s heart, I swear. It looked like a coffin, just not as eerie from all the colorful fringes and ribbons. I felt my heart pump blood faster and faster with the sweat glands in my palms getting wetter. I wiped them on my joggers and soon noticed a button on the side of the coffin which read “press to open”. And so I did.
My mouth was drooping so low I was drooling on myself. I was frozen. I couldn’t feel my hands or my head. All I was focused on was her…and her naked body. I felt my cheeks warm up and flush completely red. Her eyes were closed. Her beautiful, long, wavy, brown hair covered her breasts where she had her arms crossed with what appeared to be a manual tucked in…right in the middle. She looked so…real! Like an actual person! I wiped more sweat off my face and gulped. I carefully slipped the manual out and unfolded it and began reading the instructions.
“To activate…simply press the little heart button…across…her…chest,” I read aloud. Across her chest, I repeated in my head. Oh god. Oh god. Oh god! I had to touch her before she can actually move! My hands were so shaky as I slowly and gently grabbed her arms. I then nervously began removing them out of the way, and as soon as they were completely removed, I fainted right on top of her, pressing the button.
I woke up a few minutes later and was somehow on my bed. I quickly got up and looked around. Left to right, up and down. She was gone. Crap. Oh god, please don’t let my mother see! Please don’t let my mother see!  I immediately jumped off my bed and ran upstairs where I spotted her in the living area peeking out at the window. My mother was in the kitchen cooking, assuming she didn’t notice this random naked woman in her house, I quietly, but swiftly approached the robot-human. It was like she already knew I was going to show up for when I tried to grab her (although I was scared and nervous as shit), she turned around and smiled brightly. I lost my nerves. I almost lost my balance. That just happened. Like one of those corny movies where the girl is in slow motion while a light breeze blows through her long hair and sun gives her the perfect casting of shadow. That corny movie scene just literally happened before my eyes.
“Ju--!”
I quickly covered her mouth with my shaking hands.
“Shh…” I gestured to her. She nodded, and I could feel her lips still smiling in my mouth. I turned even redder. My heart was about to explode. I took her hand in mine and led her back to my bedroom, sneaking past my mother once more.
I gave her one of my plain white t’s and a grey sweatpants fresh from the dryer. I was looking down at the floor the whole time as she stood in front of me, playing with the texture of the clothes she had on.
“Julian.”
I slowly looked up, and by the time I knew it, she came charging at me.
“Lilly is so happy to finally meet you!”
Oh. My. God. She is hugging me, I thought. I felt my whole body collapse in the inside and again, I was completely frozen. She finally broke away, still giving me that very bright smile. She was so excited.
“Is Julian happy to meet Lilly, too?” she asked.
That’s right. I gave her that name when I was creating my “dream girl”. 
“Y-yes. I’m very happy to finally meet you, too, Lilly.” Oh god, she smelled so good. I didn’t think robots could smell that good. I didn’t think robots could feel so real, sound so real either, and most of all, look so real.
“Lilly will try to make Julian very happy now by pleasing him, cooking for him, and cleaning for him!”
Wait, wait, wait. Did she just say “pleasing”?
“Um, that won’t really be necessary…”
“What does Julian mean? Lilly is here to make Julian happy!”
“Well, yeah, but…You can just be yourself, you don’t have to cook or clean or anything…”
Did robots really have a “self”? This was so awkward.
“Okay!” she simply replied.


Dream Girls Come True


I had told my mother that Lilly was a foreign exchange student and I volunteered to let her stay at our place.
“Jules, you need to let me know first! How was I supposed to prepare a room and stuff for this beautiful young lady?”
“Miss Archer, Lilly wants to sleep in the same room as Julian because Lilly needs to be with him at all times!”
My mother and I both went speechless.
“M-mom—“
“Of course you can my new sweetie daughter-in-law!”
“Mom!”
As scary as that sounded, I was actually really happy about that.
School had me dripping sweat and heart pounding out of my chest. The first day she arrived was like getting that awesome new pair of Jordans and showing it off unintentionally to literally everyone in the building. Students, teachers, the cooks, everybody. The squad was definitely the most speechless and shocked.
“My name is Lilly! Nice to meet you, Thomas, Garry, and Jamar! Julian has really nice looking friends and Lilly would like to become friends with you all, too!”
Their mouths were widely opened to the point where I had to physically close it for them. Garry, the one who absolutely could not talk to girls, faced the other way around and stared into space. Thomas turned to me, giving me that “is this real?” look. I nodded. And Jamar was just simply amazed and was making conversation with Lilly.
“So how did you and Jules meet, Miss Lilly?” Jamar asked.
“Well, Julian actually—“
“We met online. Through eHarmony,” I quickly answered for her. Lilly seemed to understand, so she kept quiet after and only kept smiling and nodding.
“Oh wow. I didn’t think eHarmony had such perfect-looking, beautiful, extremely attractive girls seeking a relationship! Maybe I should try it…” he mumbled. I felt so bad lying to them, but there was no way in hell I was going to tell them Lilly was actually a robot I sort of created through this crazy website business. I laughed.
“Yeah man, you should totally try it…Garry and Thomas, too. You guys should, too.”
We kept getting stared at as we walked down to every class. I was especially afraid of the jocks. I was afraid they would try and take Lilly away from me or something crazy like that. I was afraid of the “popular” girls, too. I didn’t want all of them looking at or talking to Lilly, but I knew that couldn’t be prevented. Tiffany, the dumb blonde with perky boobs, sat directly across Lilly and me in the library along with her two other followers.
“Hey,” said Tiffany, giving a mocking smile.
“Can I help you, Tiffany?” I asked.
“Oh my, you know my name?”
Of course I know your pathetic name…who doesn’t? Apparently you don’t know mine.  
“We only came over because we noticed your pretty friend here. You didn’t introduce us yet,” she said, glaring at Lilly. Lilly was smiling, as usual.  
“My name is Lilly. I am Julian’s girlfriend!”
“Girlfriend!” Tiffany exclaimed. The other girls giggled. I rolled my eyes and sighed.
“What do you want?” I asked with annoyance, beginning to devise a plan of escape in my head.
“Oh, nothing in particular. We just wanted to say hi to the new girl. That’s all.”
And they finally left.
“Are those girls Julian’s friends, too?” Lilly asked. The way she looked at me made me blush away.
“No. They’re just…people I know and don’t really talk to.”
“Oh…does Julian like Tiffany?” she questioned, her smile was fading a little.
I paused to look at her. She looked so damn pretty.
“No. I don’t like Tiffany at all,” I replied with confidence. Her smile came back again. Thank god. 
“Okay! Because Lilly really likes Julian. Does Julian really like Lilly, too?”
I took no time to hesitate or think.
“Yes. I really like Lilly.”










            

Here are some vignettes from my first published ebook! Check out the rest at Amazon.com and most of all enjoy!

The Light at The End

by Alexandra Yang

Copyright © 2014 by Alexandra Yang

This book is work of fiction. The names, characters, places are products of the author's imagination or have been used fictitiously and are not to be construed as real. Any resemblance to person, living or dead, actual events, locales or organizations is entirely coincidental. 
All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced, distributed, or transmitted in any form or by any means, including photocopying, recording, or other electronic or mechanical methods, without the prior written permission of the author.




Screaming Memories

I remember the roaring waves screaming at me as I stood there. Frozen. I could hear them whispering my name. Annaliese. Annaliese. They were telling me. Urging me. Let go. Jump in. They told me if I did, I would be with them forever in an endless journey of freedom. I wouldn't have to worry anymore. I wouldn't have to be scared.
The waves continued to crash, but it calmed a bit now. It looked so peaceful. It looked so relaxing. They would be alright--my family, my friends, and Matty. I would be alright. The stale tears on my cheeks began to dry as I slowly shut my eyes. I could feel the warm breeze in front of me and the infinite stars' gaze upon me. Those memories suddenly came rushing back.






Willard, Missouri

It didn't look as bad as I had imagined it to be during the long car ride from the false four-seasons Minnesota (it was either summer or winter there. Seriously.), but I was wrong of course. My family and I settled in a small city full of white people which I felt a bit nervous about due to growing up in a mostly-Asian community with still some type of diversity.
The duplex my father had pre-rented (if that's even a thing...) was surprisingly owned by other Asians. It had two tiny bedrooms, a half-torn down bathroom which was always a hassle for the six of us, a suffocating kitchen with old grease stains on the wall and missing tiles, and a decent living area along with a broken heater.
First nights are always uncomfortable. We only had mattresses to place on the floor with some pillows and thick blankets and our bodies to keep each other warm. My two oldest sisters, Sophie and Katherine, my youngest and only brother, Vito, and I shared the biggest room with that random ugly wallpaper of a lake scenery just plastered on one side of the four walls while my parents had the second room which was much more spacious.
Early next morning as everyone was still sleeping but had their eyes open and could hear stuff, a fat rat-like mouse ran straight across Sophie's back (who was the only actually dead asleep). I witnessed it and screamed, causing everyone else to get up, too.
"Eww! Watch out for that big ass mouse! Sophie!" She woke up in confusion and slobber all over her mouth. We all immediately got to our feet and surrounded the fat-like mouse where it had scurried to the corner of spider webs. That was one morning to never forget about that house.




Another Day, Another School

My mother had a bad habit of registering my siblings and me (except for Sophie because she dropped out years ago) for school late. School was always different yet the same. Transferring over and over again had soon embedded the emotions of emptiness in my mind and turned my heart to stone that I never became nervous anymore. There was really no point. Nervous, shy, and the not-fitting-in thought that most normal preteens go through as they try to figure out why they're in school and taking math classes was of no use for them in the future. You know, one of those "phases". For me, I learned that if I expressed no emotion on my face whatsoever, people wouldn't talk to me or ask me the usual personal questions like what’s my name, where’d I come from, and so on. And it worked well. Actually pretty well that it caused a sense of intimidation. No one talked to me. Only stared. Gave me good and bad looks. I liked it that way.



Colors

The people there had different colors. Very few black, brown, and yellow. White was the majority of color there. I decided to question a random teacher one day about it.
"Why do you guys consider other races 'colored' people? People of 'color' meaning not white." He hesitated for some moments while staring at me, probably thinking I was asking him a trick question.
"Well, you see, uh..."
"Did you know that white is a color and can be used to create other colors?"
"Well, yes, certainly--"
"So how can you separate yourself if you're a color, too?"
Again with the hesitation.
"Shouldn't you be going to your next class miss?"
Katherine and I were in our own colored group because it appeared that the rest of the colored groups tended to stay within their own colors. Sometimes they'll approach us and try to hit on us. Having a white colored boy stalk me two hallways down was a little frightening. I didn't how to react when he loudly whispered, "sexy", right behind me while giving this hideous grin. I made an awful face, and then he walked away.




Mixing Yellow and White

Regan Hutchinson was quite a weird girl. She was weird for talking to me. Her skin was very pale like Snow White's with solid brown freckles spread across her face and arms and had a weird color wheel of hair that presented brown, black, and some red. Very weird.
We started talking since we had a lot of classes together. We then started walking together to those classes, too. We even began sitting at lunch together and eating together. And we one day went to the girl's bathroom together to take pictures on her phone. I wasn't sure if this was how all girls did in the bathroom, but it was something that made me feel weird. But a good kind of weird. She started asking questions about my culture to the point where I was teaching her some of the language.
"Ann, 'Ga Wa Achi'?"
"Talking to you."



Order Your Asian Today!

We had this computer class that required us to use our creativity and brains, not just our fingers for keyboarding. Regan and I partnered up on an advertising project Ms. Jewels created and assigned. She was first presenting a power point with examples and was talking a little bit about Japan's culture and how they use suffixes.
"For 'teacher', it is 'sensei' with a little dash. So here, you guys would call me, 'Sensei-Jewels'. Get it?" At that instant, I turned to Regan and let out a quiet laugh as so did she.
"Oh my god, that is so wrong," Regan said, smirking at the screen.
"I know. What an idiot!"
After Sensei-Jewels finished her power point examples, we moved on to video clips of more examples which were student projects from the past. One particular video drew my immediate attention. It was called, "Order your Asian today" with a group of white kids pretending to be Asians while making different faces each time a new "Asian" person was shown for buying.
"Wow, this is so racist, Ann!"
I did nothing but stare and watch the advertisement as it continued to play. I then got up from my seat, walked toward the portable television set, and knocked it over after the video had ended.




What Doesn't Kill You

Makes You Stronger

My parents weren't mad at me. They were just in shock, like Katherine, who admitted that she would've done the same. The principal couldn't suspend me and Sensei-Jewels couldn't give me detention or "write me up". I made her play the video to my parents and to the principal on Sensei-Jewels' computer. My parents yelled at them calling them racists. All they did was give an apology and promised to delete the project. I wanted the kids who made the project come over and get on their knees while I whipped them with a steel belt. They were unfortunately already senior high school kids.
"That is the most stupid, ignorant, and racist thing I have ever seen at a school," my mother stated fearlessly.
"I didn't think it was going to be a problem, ma'am," Sensei-Jewels said in shame and embarrassment. I could hear the shakiness in her voice as I stepped in next.
"You know, Sensei-Jewels, to make you look even more stupid, the suffix 'sensei' is actually supposed to be used after the name. Like 'Idiot-sensei, you should get your facts straight before trying to teach your students false information about a culture you have little clue about'."

Acquaintances. Friends. Gone.

"I can't believe it...we won't be going to high school together then," Regan said, frowning at me.
"I know...at least you'll have some people you already know to be there with you...unlike me..."
"Yeah, but, they're not Asian, they're not you!"
I softly laughed.
"Good luck down there...and be careful of those tornados."
"Thanks. I have yet to see one actually."
"I'll always remember you, Ann! And your awesome drawings! And your awesome self! We'll chat on messenger or Myspace, okay?"
"Okay," I plainly said, slightly smiling.
Even though I knew we were never going to do any of that networking because Regan already had her other friends who were closer to her than I was, I still managed to hug her and say my final goodbye. And I still managed to feel somewhat sad about it.



Money and Drinks

I didn't remember the time my mother came home, but it was awfully late. I did remember my father chugging down the cans of beer earlier--as he always did.
I heard them talking to each other. Mumbling words I couldn't make out, but I knew they were talking about money stuff. Money stuff that made my father angry. Very angry. His deep voice escalated first--as usual. And then my mother would try to keep him quiet from waking us up. We were already awake, pretending to sleep, covering our ears, hiding in our blankets. Even Kiba, our American Eskimo puppy, was trying to hide as he cuddled with Katherine.
Minutes passed, and they died down. They went inside their room, shut the door, and went to their separate sleeps.


Tulsa, Oklahoma

I had already adjusted to Union Intermediate High School's horrendous environment. I never would've imagined so many fights on my first day already. I witnessed one out of the ten that afternoon. Black girls were swinging their fists with fake nails and greasy shiny black weaves were scattered all over the floor. As usual, other students were crowded around whipping their phones out, causing security and teachers unable to break them apart. I, on the other hand, never cared to try and at least catch glimpses of the fights. I always just rolled my eyes and avoided them as much as possible. I was glad I didn't have any relations with those people.




More Weird People

During lunch, a random, fairly small hand tapped me on my shoulder as I was walking toward an empty table.  Startled, I turned around to see, and to my most surprise, a black girl. She looked about my age and height and had long oiled curls of black hair with a few red streaks which looked pretty cool honestly. Two big silver hoops were dangling down her ears. She wore a jean jacket with a red undershirt and faded denim jeans along with mud-brown boots.
"Are you sitting anywhere?" she asked. I was too in shock by her voice to reply quickly. It was really soft and quiet. Just like mine. I allowed her to follow me to the table where we sat awkwardly next to each other, not making any noise or trying to break any ice. Suddenly it did break.
"What's your name?" she questioned me.
"Anna," I answered bluntly.
"Are you new here?"
"Yeah..."
"Oh, me, too. I just started today."
I was too amazed at this point by her voice and "accent". She didn't sound "ghetto" like the rest of the black girls. Questions began running through my head as well. Why was this girl talking to me? Why did she choose me to follow of all people? Why?
"Oh. That’s cool. I started yesterday," I said. "What classes do you have?" She handed me her schedule that was neatly tucked in her binder. As I started to compare her schedule to mine, I noticed we had a class together: U.S. History.
"Hey, we just had this class. You were in there right?" I asked, handing her schedule paper back.
"Yeah. Coach Connor?"
"Yep."
"Yeah, I was in there. I think I noticed you across the room. You sit all the way in the back behind this white dude right?"
Wow. She obviously paid more attention in that class than I did. I would have never noticed myself if I was someone else like her.




Mixing Yellow and Black

Her name was Tiana. I discovered things about her that were similar and not so similar to me. Beside the fact that we both had quiet voices, she really liked "Asian" stuff. I mean, REALLY, and I liked "Asian" stuff, too, but her Asian fetish was mind blowing to me. I didn't even like my own culture, but I did like the Japanese culture as she did. That was her favorite. And she was always fascinated at other Asian cultures if she were to discover one. One like mine.
"Hmong? What is that?"
"Just another Asian culture with too many problems within themselves."
"Interesting. I've never heard of that before."
"That's because we're not popular and we don't have our own country and we don't have our own written language like Kanji's or Hiragana's or any other symbols. We pretty much suck. Try guessing how to pronounce this word spelled 'H-L-U-B'."
We both laughed.
"How do you say that? Huh-lub?" she asked while still chuckling.
"It's like saying 'Loo'."
"Ohh! What does it mean?"
"It means love. The most common Hmong word Hmong people know how to 'spell'...or at least the only one I could spell."
"That's awesome."
"I guess...I don't know how to spell anything else except 'you' and 'I' or 'me'. I'm not even good at speaking it either."
"Ann, it's still awesome that you're Asian though...I wish I was..."


Birthdays on Days

Not to Celebrate

"Happy birthday, Tiana!"
"Thanks, Ann-Ann!"
"Happy birthday, Ann-Ann!"
"Thanks, Tiana!"
My parents never celebrated my birthday along with my other siblings. Not that we were against it, we just never had the money to do it. We prayed each year, asking God if it's time yet to celebrate and have presents and cake. But God never answered, and we never got the presents and cake.
Tiana and I celebrated our birthdays at school. We sang the song together on the table we went to each morning. Before going in for the blow, a group of black students interrupted.
"Shut the hell up!" one yelled across. And the others laughed.
"No one give a damn 'bout yo birfday!"
More laughter.
We blew out our candles and ate our cupcakes as we watched the passerby's and watchers watch us. What a great day to celebrate our birthdays. Something was always better than nothing.




Another Day, Another Christmas

Without Santa

"Merry Christmas, Ann-Ann."
"But I'm not Christian..."
"Who cares? I'm not either."
"Oh...well then, Merry Christmas, Tiana."
Tiana always bought and constructed little gifts for me. Even on non-holidays. They were usually oriental and colorful with little items neatly concealed inside some type of box. A cheap bento-like box, a decorative to-go Chinese box, or just a regular gift box. Every time she presented those gifts to me, I always felt bad. I didn't have money to buy things she liked or even had things she liked, so the only gifts I gave her were drawings. She loved Japanese anime and manga so I decided to just draw her those. I started drawing more frequently because I knew she was going to like them. And she did. She always did.
"Ann, we should like, make a video game or something. You'll be the artist who draws everything and I'll be the producer! Or we can make our own anime!"
"That sounds pretty awesome actually."
"Let's do it. We'll go to the same college and be roomies and work together! Deal? Promise?"
I smiled with confidence. For once, I had something to strive for. To work hard for. To have something I can possibly be proud of.
"Promise. And deal."







Love Days I Hated

Valentine's Day was never my day or Tiana's, but Tiana and I met a boy in our first year of studying Chinese 1 just last week. I never knew his first name, but only his last. Singleton was what we called him. He was short, "light-skinned"(the term I learned about the different shades of black people), and constantly had one ear phone in his ear while the other one sat around his shoulder. Tiana began talking to Singleton in class and followed him like a little puppy to some of his classes during passing periods. I tagged along of course because I didn't have anyone else to walk and talk with. As I observed the two from the shadows which was literally just two feet away behind them, I could tell that Tiana was really liking this kid. She never told me why. I never asked why. She just did. And I wondered if Singleton liked Tiana, too.
We sat at our empty lunch table. Tiana was folding an origami crane with pink construction paper as I tried finishing some homework assigned that day.
"Ta-da!"
She held the blushing crane in front of me.
"Cute," I plainly said, returning to my homework. She frowned.
"I'm gonna give this to Singleton after school. I wrote a little something inside, too," she whispered while winking at me. I slowly looked up at her. She had a wide smile on and right then and there, I caught a tiny sparkle in her eye.
"Oh...good luck with that."
"I'm just gonna give it to him really fast and then we can go on the bus, okay?"
I hesitated.
"I'll wait at the bench."

Lending Ears, Shoulders, and Wisdom

Tiana didn't speak or laugh much. She wanted to switch sides during the bus ride this morning and look out the window. I glanced over a few times at her reflection. Her eyes were puffy and red. I frowned.
"It's okay," I gestured. She sighed as a reply and continued gazing out the window.
"He won't be your last. There's plenty of fish in the sea and you still have college to look forward to," I said, trying my best to comfort her. She sighed again.
"I know...It's just...we had so many things in common, and...I thought he felt the same way..."
"Well...it doesn't matter how many things you two have in common. You can have a crap load of similarities and still not end up falling for each other."
Yesterday after school, Tiana returned to the bench. The pink crane was still in her palms, trembling a little.
"What happened?"
She shook her head. I turned and looked where Singleton was. He was in a large crowd with his arm wrapped around a girl. He was laughing and smiling. I cringed my teeth and felt my cheeks warm up. I suddenly snatched the crane from Tiana, crumbled it and disposed it in the trash can.
"You don't need that."
Tiana wiped her eyes and hugged me.
"I'm such an idiot!" she exclaimed. I smiled and patted her back.
"No...He's just not the right one."
"Boys are a bunch of dogs..."
I paused for a brief moment.
"But you'll find a good loyal dog one day. All it takes is time so don't rush into things, okay?"
She broke away from hugging me and nodded.



Fighting Battles Alone

Tiana started to skip school a lot. Sometimes she wouldn't show for a week or so. She told me she was either sick or had to stay home to baby sit her two little sisters while her step dad and mother were at work. But her mother recently just quit her job, so I thought maybe she had found a new one.
            She decided to come to school one morning, but was a little late. She didn't talk much or smile the whole morning. She just kept to herself at our morning table and only greeted me, but didn't say anything after that. As we walked to our first hour class, both silent, she finally stopped and tapped me.
"What's wrong?"
Tears began filling in her eyes. She looked up at me and brushed her hair away from her face. I stared in disbelief. Deep scratches and minor, but noticeable bruises appeared.
"M-my mom..."she stuttered, "and I have been fighting a lot..."
No words came to mind and couldn't be said from me. All I knew was that she needed me most. I hugged her tight as she sobbed quietly.



The Ghetto Dictionary

There was a new girl who started and had the same English class as me. Her name was Lakeesha. Lakeesha was big, tall, and one of the "ghetto" black girls(you can tell immediately if she/he speaks their own English slang with words you've never heard of but makes sense a little actually, and they might have a lisp or have trouble pronouncing words so they make their own words i.e. "fenna"). She sat behind me and conversed with me about her ex-boyfriends and "boos". I just sat there with my I-really-don't-care smile and nodded politely. Although I may have not cared about her disturbing sex life, I found her to be quite funny and super friendly.
"That new black girl is also in your class? Which one? Computer Art?"
"Yeah. She's been staring at me a lot lately. Like, a lot."
"Oh..."
Tiana was always telling me after school that Lakeesha just liked to stare at her and throw her ugly looks. She didn't know why, and I didn't know why either. It's like there was constantly something on Tiana's face that was both mysterious to Tiana and me. We tried figuring it out, but Tiana figured it out before I did.




The Lioness and The Diva

I was walking steadily, just out of my third hour class, and was soon trapped from proceeding to my next class. Annoyed as hell, I gave a big sigh and began pushing my way through with my textbooks in hand. A crowd had formed that blocked a hallway leading to one of the staircases that I needed to go up on which were normally crowded, but this time, it was seriously crowded. I pushed and shoved carefully. Being the height that I was, I knew I would get pass easily without anyone really noticing me or trying to start an unnecessary fight, and fights were the last situations that I wanted to get involved with. Knowing how the crowd was positioned, I automatically knew it was indeed a fight happening. As I finally reached the top of the stairs, I saw her.
"Everybody move! Get out of the way!"
"Move! Move!"
Various staff members and two big security guards were shoving students from left and right to reach the center of action where my unfortunate best friend, Tiana, was locked in with Lakeesha. I myself tried pushing and shoving my way through to try and stop the fight, but the students were not budging, and being the body type that I had at that time, wasn't helping either. I didn't know what I was thinking. I could get myself seriously hurt as well if I tried to stop them because it just looked like two animals fighting for a piece of meat, but then again, my best friend was getting seriously hurt. I was soon disconnected from the crowd and the staff people finally broke them up.
We were all soon ordered by the principal to go to our classes. As I obeyed them, I watched Tiana get taken away from the blonde vice principal. She didn't see me, so I continued on with my classes, but all I could think about what just happened.






Useful Uselessness

I decided to visit Tiana and check up on her after her assigned suspension for one whole week.
"You're looking better," I said.
"Yeah...She only gave me a few scratches. Dude, I was beating her ass. They keep on saying that I was the one, but no, it was that bitch."
As bad as I felt, I laughed with her.
"And I think I accidentally punched that vice principal. Ms. Conway or something. I was like on top of that jealous beast just punching her in the face, and then Ms. Conway came and tried to pull me off but then I punched her away. I really don't remember but that's what she told me."
I gave a weak smile and then embraced her warmly.
"I'm sorry...I really am useless..."
"No...You're awesome Ann....Thank you for always being there."
I walked back home later that evening. I grabbed my sketchbook, mechanical pencil, and began drawing away. I wanted to draw something for her. And I loved drawing. I really did.



Monsters

It was a solemn Friday night in the Yang household. Everyone was contained in their own worlds with the same activities of freedom from a long week of school and work. My father was on his way home from extended truck driving hours to finally relax for one night before heading off to work the next early morning again.
He soon arrived, but was a little late than his usual time. The rest of us didn't talk or ask about his day except my mother. My mother always tried to please my father with embarrassing kisses and flirting, along with a master-prepared meal. This particular night I noticed something off about my father. He weakly acknowledged my mother's efforts and brushed her off smoothly to go sit in the cool abyss outside alone. I felt this was nothing new, so I continued my studying of manga books and drawing.
My mother had joined my father outside where I could faintly hear their discussion. My siblings and I didn't know exactly what they were discussing, but they came back inside and ceased their talking for a while where my father suggested they both go out for a walk. I looked up at the clock. It was ten.
"Where are you guys going?" Katherine asked.
"Just for a walk," my father said.
I watched them both. As my mother closed the door behind her, I saw her expression. Her face turned pale for that brief instant and her smile faded immediately as she disappeared into the darkness. I saw behind her my father who had begun walking into the shadows, waiting. I couldn't tell if it was impatience or contemplation of thoughts in his mind. He seemed calmed, but uneasy about something. Something that he never told anyone. Something that he always bottled inside.
My siblings and I continued about with our individual activities. Noticing the clock, long seconds turned into brief minutes. Shortly and unexpectedly, those minutes were disrupted violently by a loud banging on the front door that frightened and confused the hell out of everyone.
"Open the door!"
More loud banging.
"Open the door! Hurry up!"
Closest to the door, Vito nervously and quickly unlocked and opened it for our mother.
"Hurry! Shut the door!...Lock it!...Lock it!"
She burst inside the house, landing weakly onto the sofa where I had gotten off on. My mother was panting. Panting so heavily, so uncontrollably, that I felt my own lungs collapse.
"I can't...I can't breathe. Water."
Katherine was closest to the kitchen and she swiftly went to go pour a glass of cool water for my mother. After my mother fully devoured the water, she was beginning to calm down slightly but was still out of breath.
"What the hell happened?" Sophie demanded, trying to keep her voice firm, but the fear remained. 
"Your dad...," my mother began," he tried to kill me!"
Everyone's face flushed white. I looked at my siblings, and then I looked at my mother. They were all speechless. I felt my own heart sink inside my stomach. A tight knot crawled up my throat.
"What do you mean?" Sophie asked, beginning to panic.
Suddenly, the doorknob on the front door began to wiggle.
"Open the door," my father called from outside. His voice was calm. Just calm that it appeared a bit eerie through the door. He began pounding on it now. I was always afraid of his strength, and how much strength he was putting in his voice and fist gradually climbed.
"Everyone... go to the room," my mother weakly said. We all hustled to the bedroom that Sophie, Katherine, and I shared which was the only big room in the house. We left the lights off and sat in silence as we cautiously tried to look for and hear my father anywhere. He had already stopped the pounding on the front door. A few heartbeats later, he suddenly came around back and started pounding on the window in the room.
"Open the door for me. I have work tomorrow," he casually said, continuing to knock harshly. I glanced at Vito. He was slightly crying to himself with his fists tightly curled. I could tell he was just as frightened, but with a lot more anger.
"V, help me put up the mattresses against the window," Sophie quietly said.
My mother was still breathing hard, still panting crazily.
"What the hell happened out there," Katherine asked her. Katherine was always the mentally and physically strong one out of the four of us. She had already stopped her tears and firmed her voice again.
"I thought...I thought I was never going to...see you guys again..." my mother began. She was crying uncontrollably now. "I saw...my life...flash before me and--"

"OPEN THE DOOR!!"